I believe in a lot of things. One of them is this idea that there are many ways to self-actualization, the belief established by the Vedas and the Sanatana Dharma. You may also not believe in self-actualization, Gods, or even the concept of one — but you may still be on the Path whether you know it or not. Maybe you believe in running and the euphoria and bliss you get from a runner’s high. Maybe that feels like Enlightenment to you. I once met a man who had a similar relationship with his bidet
(he was quite passionate about it).
For me, I happen to be passionate about cinematography, history, mythology and theology. The former one honors the pretty pictures that depict the latter three. The latter three are like Marvel for the super heroes of ancient and unknowable times, but it honors the possibility that we may be those super heroes ourselves.
Even in factual history many great leaders started from humble beginnings. Self-actualization is always within reach for Kriyabans (Kriya initiates).
It all begins with the breath and meditation.
I read a lot of the Bible too. Sometimes it feels like reading on your family history, the way it’s framed by Christians at least — that we’re all part of this human family under a man who came down to Earth, got crucified by his own people, and now is the subject of many a political feud and division.
The first Man, Adam, fascinates me the most.
I think he must have been very handsome. If God created Him in his image, then it stands to reason. God must have been proud of his boy. I also think he might have been this vain beauty of a man, which probably led to his downfall with the snake and all that. And at least Michelangelo always depicted him that gloriously.
Then he fucked it all up and brought the concept of Original Sin to Catholics worldwide, myself included. This idea that we’re damned by default sucks. You have to believe that many good people don’t believe in Christ, and that’s okay.
I don’t ascribe to manmade doctrine. I cannot take the Catechism seriously. I know the Church finds value in the papal lineage, but I see mankind. I see flaws. I see corruption and the Borgias, child sex abuse scandals, and cover-ups. So how can we say their doctrine is infallible, when they can’t seem to take their own advice?
So I try and discern what I can from the Man himself, from Jesus. This is a process in Kriya yoga called self-inquiry. Reading between the lines and the lines themselves to find the cosmic truth to everything. Anything we read is like this: the Bible, the Gita, the Quran, the Torah, the trashy romantic novel you are relishing.
Anything you consume — with your eyes, mind, and especially your heart, has karmic impact. If a thought blooms from what you consume, then it has made its mark already. So it’s important to me to have a personal connection to the things I consume and read. It’s important that it means something to me. That’s why it’s self-inquiry even when men long gone have said those words.
Only then can you discern the Truth of it All.
I suppose this is a blog on self-inquiry, on the things that are most crucial to my existence.
That is to say,
I talk a lot of bullshit here.
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